i am not ok

it's normal for people to get emotional isn't it?

yes, and i kind of over-emotional today.
i am not sure of myself whether i am upset over the paper today or with the "please don't take friends for granted".
i think 50-50?

i think i was over-confident for today's paper.
because our lecturer literally gave us 7 tutorial questions to study.
and all the exam questions will be based on the tutorial questions.
and i thought i can do really well, since merely memorizing is my forte.
but i studied the wrong tutorial questions and i misunderstood what the question is asking for.
and ya, 20/40 marks i wrote stupid answers.
what i memorized i just literally wrote it down, because i didn't want to waste them.

and i was really depressed.
when i took out my FMM book to revise for tml's paper, suddenly i burst out.
suddenly i was so overwhelmed by the stress. by the 5 papers straight in a week.
by EVERYTHING!

and at this time, it's dinner time.
i kept quiet the whole time, and my dad asked me why?
i said ''no nothing''.
he kept talking to me, but i just kept quiet.
and he suddenly raise his voice saying "you mute huh" but in a joking manner. (because from the start he knew i was sad over today's paper)
and he was trying so hard to make me smile by saying he will bring me to BKK again.
then my eyes went watery again.
i quickly ran in my room to wipe my tears again.
done, i went out con't with my dinner.
my dad knew i was crying and he still purposely asked "you cry ah?"
i said "no", thn he bend down to look at me "no? dont bluff"
then this time even worst, burst out again!
then my stupid mum sit there and laughed at me!!!! ARRGGHHHH
so PS can. so old liao still cry. KAO!

and my dad very super funny!
he said i know why you cry, is it because andy got gf alrdy thn dont want you?
then i laughed! and say no la siao!
then he said i know why you cry liao! because hua hua accused you for stealing her things? -.-
WL! this one i laughed even harder!

but whatever it is, thanks dad for trying to make me feel better.
really, xie xie ni. zhen de.
he told me why cry? no need cry because of not passing today's paper.
omg~ then i started crying again.

and while typing all this shit out.
i literally cry while typing.
yes, i am crying like a baby now! WTF!

and i bet i can do well for tml's paper.
because i cry until headache until i am tired.