i'm not fat. i'm just not slim.

i swear this is my last time voicing out my feelings about people saying i'm fat.

i get very emotional when it comes to Kinship.
especially the ones i really loved.
i will cry hell lots. even if it's just a very very small matter.
for eg, there was once my cousins and i were eating burger king. then suddenly we started talking about how fast time has passed. and our parents getting older each day. then nia and i suddenly cried.

not only Kinship.
i really really hate people calling me fat pig; or telling me i became fatter; not fat but FATTER.
really. please mind your own fucking business.
i never ask for your opinions.
you know i really cannot take it when people say i'm fat.
i know i'm fat, but i don't need you to tell me so.
it only makes me feel suck.
doesn't mean i'm fat your mother dies right?
SO, dont be a fucking busybody.

you know, i really felt like crying in class just now.
but i kept telling myself, i can't cry in front of my classmates.
just because of someone's un-needed remarks.
my heart just stopped beating for a second.
but the feelings just kept coming back.
:((((

when i reached home, i told my parents about how sad i'm.
and this was the first time my dad said something that is so heart-warming.
Dad: people say you fat only, you want cry. cry for what? must be strong, cry for what? you also not very fat, why scared people say you fat. don't care about how people say about you.
first time in my life my dad asked me to be strong. omg~
i want to cry now..
in fact i'm crying now :(((((
hiax.

maybe i will forget what you said or forget what you did, but i will never forget how you made me feel.

When we judge or criticize another person, it says nothing about that person; it merely says something about our own need to be critical.