#63Maybe i asked for too much ..

Sorry for those who dont read chinese.

今天心情真的不好受. 本以为有你的鼓励话, 我将忘了我在那里献丑的蠢样子
但我错了.
为什么我的心情转变必须受到你的言语而影响?
你说我们不该当好朋友或你也早不因该把我们的这段友情看得太认真, 你知道这有多难受吗?
也许我的那番话让你误会了我的意思, 但终算我从中领悟到原来我们的友情是那么脆弱的.
但我也不能要求什么, 因为我没资格.

你说我没信任你, 但你呢?
你现在还不是在怀疑我把你当做'很好的朋友'这件事的事实.
但你必须知道在我们当中'你'真的是我从来没怀疑过的
可能因为其他两位都不是拥有粉色身份证的朋友, 简单来说她们是**人
所以和她们在一起时, 还是会有那么一点的距离感.

我希望我们的友情不会因为小小的摩擦而被动摇.
我知道这是需要时间来经营的, 但我会努力去完成我该做的本份.
希望你也能尽力去完成你该做的.
还是我根本不该渴望你会为我做些什么, 因为你对我说的最后一句话真的让我很失望.


Let me give you an example.
You're good at Maths, and your friend suck at Maths. You spent time coaching her; end up she passed and you failed.
You understand these feelings? You will get piss-ed with yourself. Am i right?
Ofcos i will still be happy for her; but dont tell me you wont feel a little pinch in your heart.

And I'm really surprised that i could actually forgot my dance steps and stone there like a tree trunk. Because i'm good at rhythm (thanks to band) and as well as learning & memorizing dance steps fast.
I'm not showing off here, but besides these, i'm not good at others. My dance steps are not good; perhaps not even reaching a beginner standard.
But my strong points are learning dance steps fast yet ...
And you are right, i always give things up when they are half way done.
So be sure that this time i'm serious. If i dont get to be selected like AGAIN which is a -confirmed plus chop- i'll go studiowu and learn dance till i become a pro dancer :\